Today in My Shoes . . . I Said Goodbye
Life is beautiful. Life is a journey, not a destination. Life is an adventure. Life is pleasure, Life is pain. Life is so many things to so many people. Across the world it is described in so many different ways, in so many different languages. Even with that, there is one statement about Life that is more powerful than the others, and in my mind, the most important description of them all:
LIFE IS SHORT.
Life comes and goes in the blink of an eye. Even 100 years is nothing in the scope of Time, the Earth, the Universe . . .
This is a feeling, a knowing, that I have come to understand very well in 2016. When I has my seizures in March, I was given a real wake up call. i cam face to face with my mortality, and I really came to realize just how short and precious life is. Since then I have been trying every day to embrace and appreciate all of the moments that make up this Life.
And then just a few days ago, I was given another powerful reminder. I came to find out that a friend and former Yoga student of mine was in her last days. For more than 4 years she fought, and won, many battles against cancer. And now it seems her time for fighting is done. And as I write these words, the tears are streaming down my face, and the keyboard is blurring. They are tears of sadness, and tears of joy.
I got a chance to go see her 2 nights before she passed. There were some things I had to say. Even though she was in Hospice care and no longer conscious, I knew she could hear me, I knew that she knew. There were only two words I had to say to her:
You see, even though I was technically in the role of Teacher when we spent time together, I learned so much from her. She was one of the brightest lights, and most positive people that I have known. A true Yogi who understood the Spirit, the essence behind the postures. She came to understand the true gift of Yoga, the Peace and Bliss that it can bring. She lived it.
The tears well up again when I think about all of the times she found her way to my yoga class, even when she was in some of the worst of her discomfort. When it came to the point where she had to be in a wheelchair/scooter because of the tumors in her bones, she still showed up. She found her way to her special spot in the back, and she was present. Even on the days where she was too sore, too sick to do any of the Yoga postures, she was there. And through it all I never saw her sad. I never saw anything but the bright, glowing, smiling face illuminating the room. Sometimes, she would sneak in to class a little late and I wouldn’t realize because my eyes were closed. But when they opened, and when I saw her, I couldn’t help but smile. Even though I was sitting in the “Teacher’s” seat, she was doing more Yoga than anyone. If I could have shown my students, if they could have seen the Peace and the Bliss that she found through living Yoga . . .Like I said, she was one of my teachers too.
And now, she is gone. She has been given the gift of freedom from the pain and the challenge. I know the world of Spirit got a little brighter, even if ours is a little less so.
When I left and found my way back home I couldn’t help but hug my children a little longer than usual, snuggle up a little closer with my wife. Seeing my friend at the end of her journey, and then coming to see my kids who are just at the beginning, was a profound, and powerfully moving experience. Even in death Diane taught me, she reminded me about the profound beauty, and the speed with which life happens. She reminded me not to worry about the little stuff. She reminded me to smile, just because it feels good. She reminded me that Life is a precious and sacred gift. A gift that not everyone is given, and that nobody gets to keep. So, while you have it, enjoy it and appreciate it. Live it. Truly live it. If not now, when? Don’t wait. Start today, and create the life that you want and deserve. There are many ways in which to do this, and if you are unsure about how, reach out to me and I can help.
Let your life serve as a reminder and an inspiration for others. You don’t have to climb Everest or find the cure for cancer (though that would be a good one if you can). You just have to live. Truly live. Even in the worst of it, in the pain, and the discomfort, Diane still found a way to live. Truly live. And as long as I knew her, she lived life, and truly loved life. She came to know how sacred and special it is through the challenges she had to face.
It is my hope that by sharing a bit of her story with you, that you too can start to really and truly live. To stop wasting your time, your energy, your emotion on the shit that doesn’t matter. Life matters. Love matters. Relationships matter. Don’t wait to loose these things to appreciate them, they will be gone faster than you know.
Your life depends on it . . .
About the Author
Adam is an author, transformational speaker, and stress management coach. His powerful yet approachable and easy-to-understand wisdom have the potential to make a powerful shift in your life. Combining ancient wisdom and modern science, he helps his clients achieve their personal and professional goals, free from stress and worry. My journey has taught me some powerful, profound, and incredible things. Walk with me, and I'll teach them to you too.